Friday, April 07, 2006

What a week

Recently I sent an e-mail to a dear friend and stated that I am torn between doing what I want to do and doing what I am responsible for.

This is the dilema between vocation and passion. I work in order to provide for my family. All the honorable and obedient, this is sometimes a trial. In an effort to stay sane, I also serve in various ministries and at times I taste the sheer joy and fulfillment of doing what my heart desires and what I believe is somewhat of a calling. Yet I know that through the perservearance of following through on my vocation that God is molding me and shaping me into his will.

I am reminded of this when I see the little things such as car repairs, utility bills and other payments that are due on a regular basis. Yet I am also reminded every time I see my Bride take on a new challenge because she feels safe and provided for. I see it in the joy that my sons show as they take on life and relationships as they continue to grow.

As much as I long to change the world through my grandious thinking, I am reminded that my priority is as a dad and a husband.

Jesus changed the world by changing the lives of his disciples. Then as I learn and respond the call of shepperding my family, I too can change the world by taking care of home.

The time will come when I will be called into other locations, but it is not today, this much I know. Yes, through the trials of this week, I am reminded that this is the season of being a dad.

Recently I have read the following: "Obstacles are those frighful things you see when you take your eyes off your goals."

I have learned that not all obstacles are clearly black/white evil things. Once they are recognized they can be put in their proper place.


Blogger Darren said...

We seem to be thinking along the same lines. I am praying and trying to discern if God would have me take my family overseas right now or is that something in the future or not at all. I know I am not suppose to put my family before God's plan for us, but trying to figure out if that is His plan is tough. Being in France was very eye opening.

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